For the past couple days I've shown my blog NO love. Everytime I'd begin to write I'd get writer's block. And no, not just a mild case of "I Don't Feel Like Writing Today"...this was to the point where I would just stare at the screen and be like ________________. [Completely blank for the remedial.]
But anyhoo, I'm here now and I am still not sure what I am gonna discuss but whatever. I'll just let my fingers do the talking, or typing.
Indecisive. That should've been my middle name at birth but clearly Allena sounds better. ^_^ But seriously, I am indecisive a lot. I go back and forth over the smallest things. I think it's just something in myself. I'm far from a perfectionist but I will be so mad at myself if I make the wrong decision. So I always want to be 100% sure. I guess no one can ever be THAT sure though huh? Nope. Funny I know that but still do things the way I do. Maybe that's why I've never been a big risk taker. I like to know the outcome of things before I do them. But naaaaa. That definitely has to stop. What experiences will I have in life if I don't take risks and act on faith?
......................right.
Yea so at this point and time in my life I've decided to take this risk, leave my comfort zone, and move to Buffalo, New York. I know, I know...it's my hometown, birthplace, all of the above. But I GREW UP in ATL. Been here since '99. Went to middle & high school, and even started my college career here [big ups to CAU + GSU !!!]. I know this place more than I know any of the other 49 states and I always will. This is the place where I have had all my "first's". This is what I'm used to. But even though those are all reasons that should make me want to stay, are the same reasons that make me want to leave. I want to experience something new. A modification to the normacy in my life. Buffalo isn't a place that is completely new but it is definitely something I'm not used to. But ultimately, I think this will bring out the "fight" in me again. Maybe my drive will reappear and push me to further pursue my dreams. I just feel like I'm so stagnant here. Some people do not understand my decision. They are like "from ATL to Buffalo??? ...really?" but you know what? I don't even expect them to. Just look out for me when I'm successful and happy because I chose to do this for my life. I love all who support me. <3