Trust- n. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
It's something we need in life.
Yet, you give it to the wrong person and it'll never mean the same to you again. Someone hurts you & it's like they've robbed your right to fully trust another individual the same way.. Ever. Why is trust so important? It gives you the ability to fully open up to someone. No inhibitions. It seems in our world today everyone has been used and has a hard time trusting their mate. They treat you so well.. Yet you think that it'll all change and he'll end up ripping out your heart like the last. I mean, we say that we won't fault our next for the mistakes of our previous but do we really mean it? We try or at least I do. I try to start off with a clean slate. But it seems that I'm expecting him to mess up so I don't fully let him in. That's a f'ed up way to approach anything, especially a new relationship. So I'm changing. No more of that. I'm gonna give full trust in hopes that he won't in any way, shape, or form resemble my past.
Like Hov says "Show Me What You Got." I mean, that's all I want anyway. The REAL you. Not that "oh-we-just-met-so-imma-impress-her" type of thing. Give me YOU. I never understood that anyway. Two people meet and decide to further get to know one another but all the while they're putting on a front. Telling each other what each one wants to hear and concealing the person they really are until they work their way in. They want to go on dates and talk on the phone all day in the beginning but after 5-6 months it becomes scarce. The attention span has disappeared. And you're left with nothing but questions trying to figure out if this is the beginning of the end. Naaa, I'm good on that. I'm so over those kinds of relationships and those types of people. It's hard to sometimes tell who's really in it.. The ones who prefer mind sex over physical. But I guess it all comes down to effort. The ones who are there because they WANT to be. Not because of the pure lust and sexual attraction to one another.
I think it's amazing to find an individual you can vibe with mentally, socially, and physically. Those are the elements of a real relationship in my opinion. Someone you can be 100% comfortable around because they want you for who are. Not just what you look like, how you dress, what car you drive, or any other external feature. Someone who loves your soul. Mmmmm.. Just the thought of it speeds up my heartbeat! I think it is amazing. Sad because so many people out here have been so consumed by what they thought was true love when it really was lust and infatuation. Can you believe that some people even marry for those reasons? Ugggh.. I feel for them. There's nothing like having that actual soul mate. I yearn for him to come and sweep me off my feet. I want a true king who deserves and appreciates a woman as myself. Someone who I can build with.. better yet, we can build up each other. He'll be the missing piece that completes my puzzle in this thing called life. After enduring heartbreaks, pain, and just unfortunate experiences it will be refreshing to have that one. That one that shuts everything & everyone else down. Gives you butterflies by just looking in his eyes. Ohhkay. Lemme chill, I'm getting all poetic and stuff. Ha. I get mushy sometimes. But seriously, learn to let go and trust. It'll definitely help you more than harm you. Promise.
