Venting.

"Sophomore Three Years Ain't Picked A Career..."

I Swear 'Ye was talking about me in that song. It's rediculous. Or at least that's how I feel. Where everyone else is on the 4 year undergrad plan, I feel like I signed up for 7. Horrible. Financial hardships and life's issues have definitely robbed me of the college career I yearn to have. Not to mention my ever changing major. . .

I'm thinking about changing my major BACK to journalism. Don't laugh. It's just that when I really sit here and think about it I'd rather write a story than struggle with this design ishh. Hopefully it won't be such a problem if I do switch it. I'm not even that deep into my major so my courses shouldn't switch much. Crazy.

All I ask is for my people who are reading this and my regular supporters of my blog to stay tuned. I'm about to be on my grind harder than ever to get myself out there. I know it'll pay off in the long run. Despite my indecisive-ness and prolonged undergrad experiences. =/

John-O.

I'm not letting this independent music thing rest. My homies keep sending me tunes and I'ma post em. I'm all for supporting artists on the rise.

Anyhoo, there's this guy...JOHN-O. He hails from Buffalo, NY. He's a member of the known group the "Freshmen Gang". Known all round the city for doing numerous shows and appearing on 91.3 WBNY, John-O is ready to release his debut album "Da Man, Da Myth, Da Freshman" on October 1st. I recently recieved a sample package to listen to a few tracks before the actual release date and I must say that I am impressed. With tracks like "I Need A Misses", that swoon the ladies, and the club banger "P.O.L.O", he definitely has what it takes to become a household name.

Come Again..?

Complex Magazine is slowly growing into one of my favorite periodicals to read. I love their layouts and their interviews are often raw and to the point.

Nicki's Oct '10 cover for Complex.

This month's issue features Nicki Minaj, one of today's most talked about artists. In my opinion she's cool. She appeals to the masses mainly because of her raunchy lyrics, unique style of dress, and more importantly her huge derriere. But before I could even flip the page from the cover I noticed that her backside looked like it was chopped in half...is some of it missing?

Now I'm not trying to start any controversy or anything but I've always been confused as to if Nicki's butt was authentic or just falsely accentuated with certain outfits just to draw fans.



Nicki last year at BET Awards.



This gets me to thinking though. What is craze nowadays with having a bigg butt? I can tell you that 8 out of 10 guys will choose the girl with the fat ass over the girl with the average body, regardless of the face. Now that's just my opinion but I'm pretty sure it's not too far fetched. It's rediculous nowadays. It seems in 2010, body style and image almost always trumps intellect. I have a major problem with that. Maybe because I'm the girl with the DDs cups and average booty. I just want people to focus their attention elsewhere and actually get to know people for who they are and NOT what their appearance is. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that one should go and pursue someone who's not desirable to their own liking, but don't base all your interest on external features. I see soooo many girls, especially younger than me, who  will do anything to attract a certian male and it just upsets me to see that. I just want people to be mature individuals when it comes to choosing.

Tuesday's Thoughts.

How was your sleep last night? Mine was decent, had a couple erratic dreams. Strange mishaps and people chasing me. But I'm good...

Yo. I realized that my passion for writing has once again grown since I've started doing this blog. Like sometimes I'm anxious to wake up and type before breakfast. In 1999, when I was like 11 years old, my mom bought me my first & only diary. And this was like a super official diary too, had a keepsake box with a lock and key. I cherished it. Wrote in it at least four times a week about things that went on in my preteen life. New crushes, clothes, music. You know. My diary stayed with me throughout middle and high school. It was my outlet when I didn't want to discuss certain things with my friends. It was my friend I could tell all my secrets to that I knew wouldn't tell a soul. I loved my diary. Sadly though, throughout the many  moves of my life, my diary got misplaced and never returned to me. I kinda lost my urge to write once it was gone. It was never a big deal anymore. Pfffft. Still pierces my soul to even think about it. =(

I honestly believe that my diary is the reason I even want to be a writer today.

So look out for me. I'm back on my grind to become a writer. I want the world to see my thoughts and my words, whatever they may be. I can't even fathom the feeling I will get once I see a published article that says written by "Jasmine Gonzalez". Wow. It will be such an accomplishment for myself. More than ever becoming a part of a certain sorority that once was goal numero uno.

Maybe I'll finally get VIBE Magazine's attention and become the columnist or editor I've always aspired to be. So once again I'll just say PAY ATTENTION. Because I'm definitely going places. ;)

Wale v. Cudi ??

 

VS.

REALLY THOUGH?

Recently [September 17 to be exact] I learned that Kid Cudi had supposedly took shots at "old friend" Wale in an interview with Complex Magazine. I found it hard to believe though because from what I thought they were cool friends. Guess I was wrong. Or either he is letting the "industry" get to him psychologically. I mean seriously...this is not even a case about "who's the better rapper" but why would he come his head with such statements? Maybe its just a publicity stunt to give both "talented, but unappreciated" rappers some shine. This is what Cudi said...

“...Then people like Wale get mad that 'Ye ain't give him no beats—'Ye ain't give you no beats because we ain't f***ing with your raps. It's not a conspiracy theory. We don't f*ck with you musically, so we're not going to provide music for you. The s**t is a service, it's a quality of a certain standard. N***as are just so thirsty it's ridiculous. I've been eating humble pie forever, and people still call me an a**hole. These people don't know my f***ing life—now I'm going to give them something to talk about."

then Cudi says...

"It wasn’t a shot, it’s just a simple-ass rhyme by a simple-ass rapper. You can’t let that shit faze you. That’s one of those raps that just shows the world that you wack. Why would you even use that as a metaphor? Everybody think they Hov. Niggas ain’t got the magic like they think they do; there’s only a couple of wizards in this game. I’m a wizard and I know it."

Now take that as you may but as for my stance I'm with Folarin all the way. He has yet to even respond to this nonsense.

Music To My Ears.

As you remember, I've become super infatuated with this underground music. You know, people who don't have a deal but still make bomb ass music. My friend S.T. recently put me on to his brother, G5GI, another Buffalo native who from the sounds of it, is definitely going places.

"WEED,HENNESSY, & the LOCAL EATERY" is his newest mixtape. From the title alone you can pretty much guess what it's about. But wait before you turn up your nose, take 48 minutes out of your day to give it a listen.  Overall it's hot shit that should undoubedtly be added to your iPod playlist. If you appreciate good music then you will love this mixtape. Get It Here.

I N D E P E N D E N T.

Recently I've been more exposed to independent artists. And I must say. DAMN. These guys are maddd talented. Flow game is sick...beats are even better, and the overall delivery just blows my mind. Like honestly, some of these guys are wayy hotter than these niggas out here with deals...rapping about "Flexin" and "Pretty Boy Swag" & shit.  So bubble gum. Ughh.

Like these unsigned rappers are thirsty. And it shows. I love it. They have such a hunger to deliver real hip-hop to an industry that is now flooded with big chains and flashy cars. We need that REAL hip-hop back. Music heads feel me. They have to.

Let's use Drake as an example. He used to be my favorite. His music told stories, kept you intrigued. So Far Gone, Comeback Season, Room For Improvement...all those mixtapes were before the label and if you listen to them you can hear his hunger, his actual talent. Now that he has signed with Young Money he just sounds like Weezy's protege. Nothing special. -__-

So I just wanna applaud my indie artists out here making music because it's their first love. It really means a lot to a real hip-hop fan as myself. Keep doing Your Thing. <3

Shoutout to Jae-Skeese. He's a native from my hometown BUFFALO, NEW YORK. He recently just released his debut mixtape "W.A.C.K [Women, Alcohol, Cash, and Kicks]. Variety of tempos anad hot flows. It's definitely worth a listen.  Follow him on Twitter [@jaeskeese716] Download W.A.C.K. here

Yeaah. He's hot.



Here I Go Again.

"Excuse me for feeling this way but I thought the feelings we had were here to stay."

I'm in this mood again.

Relationships & feelings are clouding my brain and I need to release.

Damn. It seems the older you get the more difficult it is. People's ways and habits are more concrete. They are less likely to change. I'm just venting because recently amongst my group of friends there has been alot of "fuck love", "I'm giving up", and other negative shit that had me thinking....SERIOUSLY? Has it really become that hard for a man and woman to unite and be happy? I'm only 22 and often times I find myself worried about finding a husband. [S M H] I realize though that at my age and in my life that should be the last thing on my mind.

As I struggle to find myself and figure out how to start my foundation for my future family, I remember to take in heed the fact that everyone goes through different things throughout life that defines who they are. So everyone will also react differently when situations arise. Funny, it took me actually witnessing my cousin and her boyfriend bicker about things for me to even come to such an obvious conclusion about humans. I was quick to throw in my opinion but then I sat back and realized..."hey, I need to follow my own advice."

It's gonna be a happy day when all my close friends find that LOVE. But until then I'm gonna remind them to stop looking and just be happy with yourself.

What good is loving someone else if you don't even love yourself?

...I'm off this love shit though. Jive sappy.

I Just Thought I'd Share.

Arbitrary
candids
of Leftee.

I L O V E to capture random moments.

You Like My Polish.??

OMG.

fave sneaks. ^_^

[who doesn't.??]

thee BEST sub ever. JEFFERSON.

Um..

jaded.STRONG.better.not.bitter
I'm not all glammed up in this photo but like I always say
...LOVE me or Leave Me Alone.
Graciasss. =]

Let's Just Stick To Real[ism]

It's been a while. I know.

Just got back to ATL from my vacay or whatever you wanna call it. It was rather nice. Drunk nights, John Legend,  and overall craziness with people I absolutely love.

The wedding was amazinggggg. <3
It looked like something you'd only see on TV.
Auntie Veen deserved it. She's awesome in more ways than one.
She's so happy. I love it. ^_^

So I'm guessing you're confused on my title and why it is what it is.

Well I'm realizing that sometimes I allow myself to drift off into this fabrication of life.

Especially when there's love involved.

I get all giddy & excited in hopes that this new guy just might be him.

You know him right? ...THEE ONE.

The one that makes everyone else obsolete.

Well I have a habit of giving half-ass ninjas high expectations

so I'm only hurting myself when the asshole tendencies come to light.

So from here on out I'm sticking to REALISM.

Until you prove you're worth my emotions, time, and energy, all you get is what I give.

No high hopes so there'll be no letdowns.

Word.