So this isn't gonna have a subject. I'm just writing off the top of my head. That's usually when my best thoughts come about. Writer's block doesn't occur when it's coming from the heart. Well that's what my homie Smizzie once said. Anyhoo. I haven't been on my blog lately. I've been dealing with this thing called life. It always has my attention. There's always something that needs to be done. Between working and trying to prepare for this upcoming semester of school, I've been an emotional wreck with MADD thoughts crowding my head. One thing about myself is that I am very much an overthinker. I am very analytical. I break things down and make assumptions that are sometimes all the way in left field. But sometimes I'm right. It all depends.
Mannnn it's crazy. I want to be a graphic designer so bad. I'm really about to be on my Wale "No Days Off" ishh when school starts. NERD. That's what imma be. I'm tryna network with anyone who shares the same career goals as myself or anything in relation to some form of art. I need to get it going. Im 22. And not getting any younger. Gotta set a foundation for my family. I don't want my [future] kids to struggle as much as I did. I'm pretty sure everyone feels that way but I'm so serious. There's nothing like living comfortably. And honestly, right now in my life on my own income I am NOT living under such conditions. Counting the days til my next direct deposit check hits is not something I want to do for the rest of my life. I mean people say "oh Jazz, you're still young, this is what you go through..." naaaaa son. I wanna be comfortable. Sometimes I feel like my drive is gone. Maybe it drove off somewhere else. Parked itself right in someone else's garage and is helping them get by...because some days I wake up like WTF !!!! Where am I going? Am I planning effectively? I just gotta remain focused. Keep my eyes on the prize...whatever that may be. Funny I can give someone else such uplifting advice whenever they need it but when it comes to following it myself it isn't that easy. I'll be ok.
Love Life.
...or lack thereof.
We'll just see where it goes. I don't wanna elaborate too much on it and jinx whatever could be brewing up in our future so imma hushhh. =]
It's easy to say what you want to do. What car you want to drive. What kind of house you want to live in. What you want your spouse to look/act like. But what are you doing to achieve those aspirations and secure your dreams to make them reality?