As I sit here & think about Mary J Blige's song "real love" I think about how I NEVER actually experienced that real love. I mean yea, I've had people that I've loved and I'm pretty sure they loved me but naaa, I don't think there's been a time when I felt like I honestly was in love. That unconditional "I don't care what you look like today" love. That "she's mine & I don't care who knows" love. The one who's there when you need him & vice versa. Nope. He's never been here. Bothers me though. I mean, sometimes I feel I am incapable of acquiring such love. That's bad. Us women are told to always be aware of your worth. "You're a beautiful queen who deserves nothing but the best". Yeaa yeaa yeaa. I mean I believe I'm worthy of a good man but I'm soo scared to give my heart that if he does come along I might ruin it. I sit & think of all the older women around me whose ring finger hasn't been decorated with that lifetime promise of love. It honestly scares me to see that. Everyone deserves to be happy. & that's a fact.
I can only imagine the handfuls of women out here who share my thoughts and feelings. It seems that love would be so easy to attain since there's so many people out here who want it. Mind games. I think that's one of the biggest hurdles when it comes to finding real love. You meet someone. Attempt to get to know them. Understand their psyche. Ask their hobbies, likes, dislikes, ect. hoping to find some sort of outstanding compatibility to make them "The One". In the beginning it's [p e r f e c t]. It seems like you can love that person for the rest of your life. No question. But when that "puppy love" feel wears off where do you pick up? What do you do when the calls become seldom and the text messages go from paragraphs to a mere 1-2 words? I believe that when these type of things happen it's just reality settling in. Fairy tales don't last forever. I don't think it means your over. Naaaaaa. Not me. See I'm a Taurus. We're patient lovers. I believe that if you really want something then sometimes you gotta have patience. Good things comes to those who wait right? Exactly. I beleive there's someone for everyone. So don't worry. Love will come knockin when you least expect it.
Like really. I could sit here and write endlessly on love, relationships, and humans. But I'm not.