All I want is to be content. I don't want to need a significant other to make me smile. That's wack. I've been single for over two years now and even though there's times when I really want that guy around so I can be cuddled up with him, I realize that I am satisfied loving me. Hit me like some sort of epiphany though. Woke up with a smile. Always feels good to not anticipate that text from "him" in the morning. I no longer reach out and try to compete for his attention either. It is what it is. And that will never change. My brain has spent countless seconds&minutes trying to mend whatever broke between him and I but I can't do it any longer. I am now satisfied with whatever transpires between us. & though it may not be everything I thought it would, I have no choice but to let it be.
You know the saying. Some people are meant to be in your life for a season and some for a lifetime. [Well it's something like that] I believe that statement. I believe that some people are meant to only be in your life for certain time periods. Everyone isn't a keeper. And the problem comes in when you try to keep someone in your life longer than they were supposed to be. If God has placed someone in your life for a season and you want to keep them around forever it won't be beneficial to you. You'll only keep asking yourself "what is wrong with us?" "what happened?" ..Well nothing happened it's just time for that person to be removed from your life.
It's always hard for me to tell who's around for a season and who for a lifetime. Because most times I try to keep who I want to keep around. Regardless of God's plan. I only wind up hurting myself , struggling to hold on to what things were like in the past. Uggghh. It's ridiculous. I know. But that's how I am. It takes a lot to really upset me, so I give people more chances than the average person would. Whatever though, I'm realizing that maybe I'm single for a reason. This may be the time when I need to focus on me. Try and reach my dreams. I don't see anything wrong with that at all.
Whenever he comes along, cool. But for now I'm in a relationship with ME. =]]]]]