Why.

Reality TV is taking over. While watching the drama infested finale of Vh1's "Basketball Wives" I realize this. Here is a group of women who are now reaching fame just for being married to a man of status. The fact that the majority of the wives are divorced from those men makes me question the title and the motive for the whole show itself. I mean why? We listen to their problems, criticize their lives & choices. Why are we so into watching the lives of others on TV? My sole purpose is for entertainment and laughs. 

But what about the younger generations who are learning the way of life from the TV screen? The children who's parents aren't around to show them what REAL love is, instead of just being a contestant amongst other women to win over a man's heart? [As seen on "For The Love of Ray J"] I mean seriously, TV has definitely changed since I was a child. Nowadays there's shows about everything. From finding love to finding someone who's "DTF" for the night [Jersey Shore], we can clearly see that our society's morals have doubtlessly changed. Seems the media doesn't care who watches their shows, long as there ratings are good there's no problems. But are you really risking destroying the livelihood of the kids just to achieve successful ratings? Yes, we can say "don't watch that!" "turn that off!" but it's still out there. Beyond TV. 

It amazes me to see how much the media has shaped us. We believe everything we see. We have biased opinions on everything. Everyone is expected to be beautiful in the means of what the media potrays. Skinny. Big ass. Long hair. Men should be oozing with sexiness as well. Tall, 6 or 8 pack, perfect teeth. Blahhhh. We are all tainted. Our vision of beauty is clearly off scale. And television is such a big influence. 

SoloDolo,

All I want is to be content. I don't want to need a significant other to make me smile. That's wack. I've been single for over two years now and even though there's times when I really want that guy around  so I can be cuddled up with him, I realize that I am satisfied loving me. 

Hit me like some sort of epiphany though. Woke up with a smile. Always feels good to not anticipate that text from "him" in the morning. I no longer reach out and try to compete for his attention either. It is what it is. And that will never change. My brain has spent countless seconds&minutes trying to mend whatever broke between him and I but I can't do it any longer. I am now satisfied with whatever transpires between us. & though it may not be everything I thought it would, I have no choice but to let it be. 

You know the saying. Some people are meant to be in your life for a season and some for a lifetime. [Well it's something like that] I believe that statement. I believe that some people are meant to only be in your life for certain time periods. Everyone isn't a keeper. And the problem comes in when you try to keep someone in your life longer than they were supposed to be. If God has placed someone in your life for a season and you want to keep them around forever it won't be beneficial to you. You'll only keep asking yourself "what is wrong with us?" "what happened?" ..Well nothing happened it's just time for that person to be removed from your life. 

It's always hard for me to tell who's around for a season and who for a lifetime. Because most times I try to keep who I want to keep around. Regardless of God's plan. I only wind up hurting myself , struggling to hold on to what things were like in the past. Uggghh. It's ridiculous. I know. But that's how I am. It takes a lot to really upset me, so I give people more chances than the average person would. Whatever though, I'm realizing that maybe I'm single for a reason. This may be the time when I need to focus on me. Try and reach my dreams. I don't see anything wrong with that at all. 

Whenever he comes along, cool. But for now I'm in a relationship with ME. =]]]]]

hi.

Things are looking up.
I feel good.
Don't ask why because I don't even know for sure but I do know that I am smiling.
I guess I'm seeing what my life could be if I just focus and get me together.
There are so many people who want me as their person for writing.
Now call it what you want but I'm actually flattered that people even see me in such a way.
Who am I not to jump on such opportunities?
If only VIBE could do the same.....


It's already the third month of this new year. Can you believe it? I can't. I have a feeling that this year is going to go fast. So I guess it's only right that I get going.