Blurt.

I live in a world where the media suggests what we should believe in. 

They put out the images and we follow. 

We conform when we don't even realize it.

Everybody wants to live "the life", 

But what is it exactly?

Who the f*ck knows.

Some religious group of individuals believe tomorrow is the end.

Yup, supposedly tomorrow sometime I'll be up in the sky.

Blahhhhhhhh. 

Peeeeek.

H&H.

My ATL acquaintances have released their first collaboration mixtape! Britney Dionne & Mr. Ron Fame have created their debut tape entitled "Another Human Interest Story". It's a four track tape which gives you insight on who they are and what they sound like. With Britney's timeless voice and Ron's smooth, crooner voice, this duet is sure to turn heads. Take a listen..

Single Life.

I'm 23. And I've been single for almost 3 years. Now if that doesn't sound like an eternity then you must not be human. Don't get me wrong, I've enjoyed the single life for some time, the "no ties", "no strings attached" type of situations, but ultimately I would rather be someone's main squeeze. Us humans crave that companionship and love you get from a romantic relationship. No one can tell me otherwise, no matter how exciting the single life may seem. We weren't placed on this earth to experience life alone but with today's set of morals I bet I have a bunch of individuals who would beg to differ. 

Well you know what? I can't speak for everyone but I can speak for myself. I am tired of the "single life", I'm ready for that lifetime "hold me down through thick&thin" companion. Not asking for a ring tomorrow or anything but I'm ready for that unconditional love and affection. I'm not asking for too much. I do know that being single this long teaches you a thing or two about how to approach your next relationship. I most definitely tend to proceed with caution, just to make sure it'll be right. I don't want to get into to something just for it to go sour in a couple months. Naaa. Someone who won't give up easily is what I need. I've dealt with the guy who is all in until he starts to fall and pushes me away, and the guy who wants to lock me down, yet still play the field. I'm over that.

What's next? I look at my brother who got married at 23 and look at myself and draw a blank... I would love to follow in his footsteps and marry the guy of my dreams but it doesn't look like that may come to reality. Well at least not now. And that's cool because I don't see me actually married right now, but on the path to be.. Yes. 

Idk. The single life isn't all it's cracked up to be. And a relationship done right is something that everyone deserves. I don't want a knight in shining armor to come sweep me off my feet but damn, let a girl get sunthin real. But in the meantime, I'll just be here. Enjoying life. One day at a time.

Thoughts Released.

Politics Smolitics. Yeahh. I was never the one to entertain such. Yesterday as our nation cheered and celebrated the death of the "Al Qaeda" king, Osama Bin Laden, my excitement quickly faded as I begin to think about the reality of what just happened and how this may affect our nation.

After being a fugitive to the United States for almost 10 years after the horrific terrorist attacks that killed thousands in NYC&DC, Osama is finally dead. Supposedly President Obama and his administration manifested some covert operation that has been in action for years now. And surprisingly yesterday was the day that he was finally sent to his demise. I have lots of questions though. A Presidential address and 2 hour news coverage from CNN is not enough to persuade me that our nation is on it's way back up the totem pole.

I understand that Bin Laden was a very dangerous man who did abhorrent things to the United States and other countries but why must we celebrate his death? Ohh I get it now.. an eye for an eye huh? Mannn, our problems are far from over. And to me, his existence has nothing to do with what our country is going through right now. Our troops are still overseas fighting an endless war. Gas prices are raping our salaries as it continues to rise to almost $5.00. And does this man's death REALLY mean the "Al Qaeda" is finished for good? How do we know that he didn't have people under him ready to take his place in case something like this did take place? 

I'm trying to understand if our government is looking out for their nation's best interest or just for the benefit of themselves or those in higher power. I just pray that Osama's death doesn't provoke his followers to attempt a retaliation. We really can't handle that right now. As much as the 9/11 attacks unified us, 9 1/2 years later it seems we're not as patriotic as we were.

With sooo many problems going on in our country amongst these 50 states, I really do not get why we are in all these other countries around the world trying to solve their problems. We have people over here who can't even go to the hospital because they don't have healthcare. And the education ordeal? This college girl is gonna shut up about that because that is indeed another can of worms. SMH.

Ohh wait. One more thing. Osama has supposedly [already] been buried close to sea to respect his Islamic religion poilicies.. THAT fast tho? I don't know how I feel about that. I have not seen anything to seal the deal for me. For all we know, the media and government are just playing puppet master as we continue to conform and just be gullible to whatever information they decide to tell us. 

We gotta keep an open mind nowadays. This world we live in is crazy and I'm beginning to feel like nothing is as it seems. I'm through with my venting today. 

-Leftee. 

It's A Secret.

I took this photo a couple days ago when my homie took me to his secret hideaway. Well I guess it's not really a secret if it's a public area but so what. Anyhoo, he names it the "Rabbit Hole" and it looks like just that. An abandoned area filled with graffiti, grass, dirt, and rocks. He says it was an old railroad. I thought it was pretty cool [especially the graffiti]. It reminded of a place you could escape to if ever you needed to be away from the rest of the world. Sanctuary. You know.. self reflection type ishh. I dig it. 

I Sooo <3 Graffiti.

We had to climb up mounds of rocks to even get to the area. I felt like a kid again. Got my hands dirty a little bit. And since I've got older I've been the type you would consider "girlie" so dirt and my hands usually don't mix. I made an exception though. And I'm actually glad that he did bring me up there. If ever I needed to talk to the Almighty or just chill out dolo then that would definitely be a place I'd love to go. 

Tight. Literally.

Don't they make you salivate? This here is one of the brands of shoes that most girls would kill to rock. They're the "bees knees". Louboutins. Yeahh. You peep the red bottoms.


Anyhoo, how mad would you be if you ordered your first shoe from this Italian owned company and when it arrives at your house you come to the horrifying revelation that its too small? Instant sadness.

Well that happened to my cousin. Tried the shoe on and it didn't fit. It was horrible. Guess she'll just have to send them back and exchange them. But sheesh, the thought of having to wait longer for your shoes is just ewwww. 


Short story I had to share. Thanks for listening. =]]

Why.

Reality TV is taking over. While watching the drama infested finale of Vh1's "Basketball Wives" I realize this. Here is a group of women who are now reaching fame just for being married to a man of status. The fact that the majority of the wives are divorced from those men makes me question the title and the motive for the whole show itself. I mean why? We listen to their problems, criticize their lives & choices. Why are we so into watching the lives of others on TV? My sole purpose is for entertainment and laughs. 

But what about the younger generations who are learning the way of life from the TV screen? The children who's parents aren't around to show them what REAL love is, instead of just being a contestant amongst other women to win over a man's heart? [As seen on "For The Love of Ray J"] I mean seriously, TV has definitely changed since I was a child. Nowadays there's shows about everything. From finding love to finding someone who's "DTF" for the night [Jersey Shore], we can clearly see that our society's morals have doubtlessly changed. Seems the media doesn't care who watches their shows, long as there ratings are good there's no problems. But are you really risking destroying the livelihood of the kids just to achieve successful ratings? Yes, we can say "don't watch that!" "turn that off!" but it's still out there. Beyond TV. 

It amazes me to see how much the media has shaped us. We believe everything we see. We have biased opinions on everything. Everyone is expected to be beautiful in the means of what the media potrays. Skinny. Big ass. Long hair. Men should be oozing with sexiness as well. Tall, 6 or 8 pack, perfect teeth. Blahhhh. We are all tainted. Our vision of beauty is clearly off scale. And television is such a big influence. 

SoloDolo,

All I want is to be content. I don't want to need a significant other to make me smile. That's wack. I've been single for over two years now and even though there's times when I really want that guy around  so I can be cuddled up with him, I realize that I am satisfied loving me. 

Hit me like some sort of epiphany though. Woke up with a smile. Always feels good to not anticipate that text from "him" in the morning. I no longer reach out and try to compete for his attention either. It is what it is. And that will never change. My brain has spent countless seconds&minutes trying to mend whatever broke between him and I but I can't do it any longer. I am now satisfied with whatever transpires between us. & though it may not be everything I thought it would, I have no choice but to let it be. 

You know the saying. Some people are meant to be in your life for a season and some for a lifetime. [Well it's something like that] I believe that statement. I believe that some people are meant to only be in your life for certain time periods. Everyone isn't a keeper. And the problem comes in when you try to keep someone in your life longer than they were supposed to be. If God has placed someone in your life for a season and you want to keep them around forever it won't be beneficial to you. You'll only keep asking yourself "what is wrong with us?" "what happened?" ..Well nothing happened it's just time for that person to be removed from your life. 

It's always hard for me to tell who's around for a season and who for a lifetime. Because most times I try to keep who I want to keep around. Regardless of God's plan. I only wind up hurting myself , struggling to hold on to what things were like in the past. Uggghh. It's ridiculous. I know. But that's how I am. It takes a lot to really upset me, so I give people more chances than the average person would. Whatever though, I'm realizing that maybe I'm single for a reason. This may be the time when I need to focus on me. Try and reach my dreams. I don't see anything wrong with that at all. 

Whenever he comes along, cool. But for now I'm in a relationship with ME. =]]]]]

hi.

Things are looking up.
I feel good.
Don't ask why because I don't even know for sure but I do know that I am smiling.
I guess I'm seeing what my life could be if I just focus and get me together.
There are so many people who want me as their person for writing.
Now call it what you want but I'm actually flattered that people even see me in such a way.
Who am I not to jump on such opportunities?
If only VIBE could do the same.....


It's already the third month of this new year. Can you believe it? I can't. I have a feeling that this year is going to go fast. So I guess it's only right that I get going.